"Upsetting the "normal" while creating the beautiful." Annette Kruschek |
Who knew that someone so little could fight SO big! Who knew that thousands of miles away my daughter was waiting to save me... not me save her. Who knew that it would take her broken heart to mend so many hearts here at home. Who knew that I would find more peace in the middle of uncertainty. Who knew that our family would be blessed far beyond our wildest dreams by not only friends but a community that I am so proud to call my home. Who knew that I would make friends with complete strangers just because of her heart. Who knew that our family would enter unchartered waters and stare death in the eyes and come out on the other side no longer afraid of it or its hold on us. WHO KNEW?
God did. Clara did. Our faith did. I find myself looking deep into Clara's eyes at times completely awestruck that she is my daughter. If I could sum up one word to describe our last year since her surgery it would simply be... FUN. Clara is fun to be around. It's that simple. Our family is entertained by her. She doesn't go very long without someone in the family scooping her up, spinning her around, kissing her, squeezing her and of course laughing out loud at her. She is the littlest in our bunch but the fierceness in that little body is something I am SO proud of! She is my little heart warrior. I have no doubt that she will take this world head on. I know with complete certainty that her brothers and sisters will always lift her up with whatever dreams she will dream. She is that second layer of glue that binds our family even closer to one another. It is because her that hopes and dreams in our family are now limitless. When you walk this close to the edge of a cliff and realize there is nothing to fear that is when the future begins to look so very bright. Living a life without fear, hesitation or regret is attainable and it is all because of our little warrior. Clara Grace, it is because of you I slow down and let you take the wrapper off your fifth sucker for the day. It is because of you that sometimes we eat dessert before dinner, stay up past bedtime, rock and sing before bed and appreciate the frogs, ladybugs and puppies. It is because of you I smile when I reach into my purse only to find tiny shoes that you have slipped off for the tenth time. It is because of you my Mother, your Nana smiles when she sees you running into her room. It is because of you that your Dad and I have decided to bring your brother home to live with us forever. It is because of you that we live a life of complete happiness. I've learned it is SO much better to live the life that is right for our family. I have learned to take opinions, judgement and smile... simply smile. Before you my dear these things could have rocked my secure little life but today they don't even cause a ripple in the water our family is so happily swimming. You are my life preserver. You push your Dad and I to swim deeper, live bigger and love harder than ever before. You are my hero. You are the reason why adoption is SO beautiful. YOU... Miss Clara are loved. Happy One Year Heartiversary! Let's celebrate with suckers, no shoes and dessert before dinner!
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AuthorI am a proud Mother to eight children and a wife to my very best friend. I work hard, play hard and love until it hurts. Archives
January 2023
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