"Upsetting the "normal" while creating the beautiful." Annette Kruschek |
Here is a picture of what "not upsetting the apple cart" looks like. Hence the reason for the name of my blog. Back in April of 2015 Dan and I sat across from our social worker from our adoption agency and those were the words that came out of my mouth when describing the child we were open to adopting. You see, in the adoption world an adoptive parent is given a medical checklist. Items on that list range from cleft lip/palate to terminal. It is the job of a parent to check items that you would be willing to discuss in order to be "matched" with a child. Speaking from experience, and filling this checklist out twice, I know the struggle and the guilt you feel when saying yes and no to certain conditions. That day back in April I remember talking about our "checklist" and letting our social worker know that my plate was very full with five children, a husband who travels frequently and a Mother who now lives with us. I continued to say I don't think my children could handle a sibling with major medical needs and I didn't know how I would handle frequent doctor appointments, major surgeries and of course every parents nightmare... the death of a child.
Little did I know, at that moment I was not arguing with her but rather with myself. Her only comment to me was, "aren't you already doing that?" Me, "Um... no." She continued to say, " Well, don't you already take your Mom to a variety of doctors appointments, haven't you been by her side when she was taken to the hospital and weren't you there when your Father passed away in your home?" Speechless.... that was my reaction. No words came out. No excuses. Nothing. At that moment I do believe my social worker wasn't speaking to me but rather God was speaking. Those words followed me out the door, back to the checklist and to the "waiting child" page. Those words found our little girl who we proudly named Clara. I look forward to showing you how beautiful life is when you "get out of the boat", "step out of your comfort zone" and love until it truly hurts. Thank you for choosing to join me on my journey. If you find yourself intrigued then allow yourself to be brave and do what that little voice inside of you has been begging to do. Go ahead, upset the apple cart! It may look broken and chaotic at times but it is as sweet as a red delicious!!
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Tacia Hill
9/15/2016 09:23:16 pm
I love this! Your written words a couple of months ago are still with me every single day: "God inspires us to help the less-fortunate". I carry this in my heart.
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